Im trying to start with the possitive this morning but am having a hard time already. Aiden continues to have seizures although he is on 5 different meds at this point, hes been pretty much knocked out but yesterday was starting to stir every 4hours to eat which was the highlight of my whole day! It continued through most of the night, and he actually a couple times cried which was amazing to hear ... Its extreamly hard going through the many different emotions that this is taking me through... Im going of corse through extreame sadness, fear of the future and for my son, anger that this is happening and there are so many people out there who have kids they dont deserve,or who take drugs ect and have healthy babies, and ive definitly become a homebody, scared to death to takr him out in publyic and have something go wrong, or for even do normal things like baby pictures and have him have a seizure and have someone see it. These are all things im sure im gonna hafta get over and im coming to the realization its probly something we will hafta deal with possibly for his whole life... Im loosing hope that this is just some fluke and will go away...
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